Random Ramblings

It's a gloomy Wednesday morning, could have stayed in bed all day.
But I think about how you would want me to continue on.
I think of all the times you had been knocked down & ALWAYS got right back up.
You certinaly had your share of heartache & obstacles but ALWAYS kept on going.
As you would say "Every day is a new beginning.
So I try Dad.
I try REALLY hard to just keep going.
Falling apart isn't an option, although I would be lying if I said I didn't want to at times.

This Sunday is Father's Day - wonderful.
The first holiday that comes after your departure.
Not quite sure how Im going to get through that day.
Maybe the anticipation of it will be worse then the actual day.
That's what Im hoping for.
Im sure I'll spend part of the day with Robert & this will be my first time visitng you at your grave for a holiday rather then coming to the house.

I started to seeing a therapist who deals with grief couseling.
Her name is Janet.
There are no coincedences.
And she is wonderful.

I see her today, thank God because the past 2 days have been pretty hard.

Everyone says "Im here if you want to talk" but who really wants to hear all about how Im feeling?
I feel bad dumping those emotions of anyone.
And that's also why Im glad I have Janet.
I may have to pay her but at least I don't feel bad telling her where Im at.

Well Dad that's all.
Like you can actually read this :)

Miss you more then words could ever express.
And love you just the same.
Forever !