Well Dad,
This was your first year in heaven for your birthday. And while we missed you so very much here on earth, with us, I know you are surrounded by many others who have loved you & missed you.
2014 has without a doubt been THEE hardest year of my life.
Harder then being a 17 year old mother.
Harder then facing my demons & going to rehab.
Losing you, the greatest man I will EVER know, has brought me to my knees.
Just this past weekend, my cousin Stephen came to join you and his own father.
He was only 59.
As you would say, that's too god damn young. He leaves behind 3 children. It is devestating.
Just another reminder how precious life is.
Here one day, gone another. I knew a wonderful mad who used to say the same.
Miss you more then anything & I cannot wait until we meet again.
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Friday, December 5, 2014
Wishing you were here
Not sure where to start.
So many things have happened & so many things are coming up that I really wish you were for.
For starters, Nicole had her 20th Birthday & I wish you could have been there for that.
Thanksgiving came & I wish you were there for that.
After all, you are & always will be one of the most important people I am thankful to have had in my life. "HAD" - that hurts so badly. And even though you are no longer phyically here with me, you are & ALWAYS will be in my heart.
I was going to spend the day with Robert & Aunt El but Robert got sick & had to cancel.
I ended up spending the day at the Didden's & Im glad I went. I got to spend the time with Nicole & I know you would have been happy about that. I also know you would have been happy to know I wasn't sitting home alone.
Your Birthday is in 2 days. You would have been 83. You knew you weren't going to be here for it. But Robert, Aunt El are going to go Gino's in your memory.
Then of course there's Christmas.
It's just been one special event, one special holiday after another that you are no longer here to celebrate with us.
And it absoutley breaks my heart.
Im doing the best I can Dad. Im REALLY REALLY trying & I think you would be proud of how I'm holding up.
I think of you & all you went through & not once did you "throw in the towel".
As you would often say "You have to play the hand your delt"
I love you & miss you more then words alone could ever express.
So many things have happened & so many things are coming up that I really wish you were for.
For starters, Nicole had her 20th Birthday & I wish you could have been there for that.
Thanksgiving came & I wish you were there for that.
After all, you are & always will be one of the most important people I am thankful to have had in my life. "HAD" - that hurts so badly. And even though you are no longer phyically here with me, you are & ALWAYS will be in my heart.
I was going to spend the day with Robert & Aunt El but Robert got sick & had to cancel.
I ended up spending the day at the Didden's & Im glad I went. I got to spend the time with Nicole & I know you would have been happy about that. I also know you would have been happy to know I wasn't sitting home alone.
Your Birthday is in 2 days. You would have been 83. You knew you weren't going to be here for it. But Robert, Aunt El are going to go Gino's in your memory.
Then of course there's Christmas.
It's just been one special event, one special holiday after another that you are no longer here to celebrate with us.
And it absoutley breaks my heart.
Im doing the best I can Dad. Im REALLY REALLY trying & I think you would be proud of how I'm holding up.
I think of you & all you went through & not once did you "throw in the towel".
As you would often say "You have to play the hand your delt"
I love you & miss you more then words alone could ever express.
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