I know you're still protecting me

Hi Dad,
God I miss you so much.
But I wanted to thank you.
There is no doubt in my mind that you are still looking out for me. I have proof & I am beyond grateful.
I can't & I won't write about specifics, it's personal & not something I wish to share with anyone.
But I know you heard my prayers, my pleas for help, my desperation.
And I know between you & God, you took control.


I love you just as much today as when you were still here with us.
In fact, I may love you even more.
As "they" say "absence makes the heart grow fonder".


I love you Dad - so so much

A New Year.

Well Dad, here it is, 2015.

No doubt that 2014 was the hardest one I've ever faced but there is something bittersweet about beginning this new year. You will never know one single thing that has or will happened.
That makes me sad.
I know you're watching down on us & maybe, just maybe you really can see what's going on. I sure hope so.

Christmas was VERY hard without you.
Nicole & I went to Roberts & the 3 of us went to the cemtery.
I got so upset as did Nik.
It was her first time being there since the day of your funeral.

After that Robert & I went to the jewish deli & I had a pastrami sandwich.
Not your typical Christmas but then again, there was no way it could be without you here.

So here is it, a new year.
A chance to make new memories, a chance to "start over".

Please Please Please continue to give me strength.
Please continue to bless our family.

We need a good year.
One of happiness & good health.

I love you & miss you more then anything in this world