Monday, June 23, 2014

Missing you !!!!

I miss you.

I miss you so much it physically hurts.

No doubt a piece of my heart left the day you did.

I went out to the farm this past weekend.
We had such a nice day that day.

As soon as I saw the apple orchid, I cried.
I guess you could say they were tears of happiness but also sadness.
Sad because I will never again get to do that with you.

I went out there to try & "clear my head".
Well that didn't work. It was so quiet, all I did was think.

I miss you so much Dad.

The mornings are hard.
It's as if I just want to wake up from this nightmare & in the morning, its like I have to accept it all over again.

I find so much comfort being around Robert.
I suppose because he's the closest thing to you & because we both shared such a special bond with you.
He truly is amazing.
He does the daily calls, just like you did.
Last night he callled & said " I can hear him telling me "check in with your kid sister".
Told me to go to work & "put a day in the bank"

People say time will help, I dont want to rush away my life but I cannot wait until I can see you again.

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