I named this blog "My Journey with my father". And although he is no longer physically here, apparently my journey with him will last forever.
So now Im on this "greif journey" - I WANT OFF !
This is one journey I don't know if I can handle.
I've always been the emotional one.
Now I think Im a total mental patient :)
One minute Im ok & the next Im in tears.
A part of me feels like Im in denial but how could that be?
I saw his dead body !
I saw his withering away.
I knew this was going to happen.
To think Ill never see him again on this earth is such a hard concept to wrap my head around.
I have video's & still have voicemails so I heard his voice yesterday.
Not that I think I could ever forget his voice - I can hear him telling me what to do in every situation.
My heart is so broken.
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