So Many Memories

I know you're watching over us, I know you ALWAYS WILL.

Yesterday I went to Briggs St.
I always find comfort there but yesterday I just went into your room, layed on your bed & cried my eyes out.
I needed to do that.

Of course Robert came in to see if I was ok & then asked me what I wanted for dinner.
Telling him I wasn't hungry wasn't working so I sat & ate some "famous" Robert salad.

I told him that I find so much comfort being with him. He is after all, the closest thing to you.

And he has this ability to make me laugh even when Im crying.

You raised 2 amazing men Dad.
They have really stepped up to the plate, you would be so proud.

Sam checks in with me, sending me messages that sound just like the things you would say.

Robert gave me a box of all the things you saved over the years. I was blown away !
You saved a ltl flower pot I made you in 1989 !
He gave me quite a few envelops of cards, letters, drawings & pictures you saved of both mine & Nicole's.
As Rob said " do you think you wrote him enough letters telling him how much you loved him & how grateful you were for him?" - We laughed but it also was just another reminder to me that I have no regrets with you. I am so happy that I not only gave you them but that you saved them.

There was one thing in particular that just brought me to tears.
It was a bookthat my mother gave you on what I believe was your wedding day.
I was shocked that after the divorce you didn't throw it away.
As Robert said, he prob didn't because he knew one day you would get it.
Thank you Dad.

You still continue to comfort me & remind me of just how special our bond is.
I don't say "was" because it's a bond that will never go away