2 months

2 months ago today, you left this world & mine has been forever changed.

I can't say I haven't heard your voice in 2 months because I still have voicemails & of course all of the videos that Robert shot.

I can't say I haven't "felt" you because I know I did the other day in church.

But I can say, I miss you !

I miss you so much that it truly physically hurts.
I would give anything for one more conversation, one more kiss goodbye, one more hug, one more request for some scratch off's, a buttered roll, a cup of coffee.

I went to the cemetery yesterday & as expected, I cried.
I also watered your tomatoe plant (which by the way is doing great!)
And as always, I kissed your headstone when I was leaving.

I always kissed your farhead when I was leaving.
Now I kiss a granite stone.
Big difference.

I have been writing on here for a little while now yet none of the words I write could ever really express what Im feeling.

It's a pain that can't be put into words.

I can only hope & pray that you know how deeply you are missed.

I was going through the box of stuff that Robert gave me & I was blown away by all the little things you saved.
Just another reminder of how much you loved us.

I love you Dad & Miss you more then anything !