Remembering

Today is Sept 11th.
A day that nobody will ever forget.
A day that changed this world forever.

13 years ago yet it feels like only yesterday.

Tomorrow is Robert's 51st birthday.
Words can't describe how grateful I am that he didn't take that job where he was supposed to be at Windows of the world on this day 13 years ago.
I truly believe his mother was his guardian angel. I don't believe in coincedences.
I believe in fate & I've always believed in angels.


Tomorrow, Robert, Nicole & I are heading to Vermont.
To celebrate his birthday & to spend some quality time together.
I know you would be so happy about that.

Last year you & him attempted to go but you didn't feel well & you came home.
Tomorrow we will go & we will not only celebrate his birthday but we will also remember the times you were there & the memories you & he ( and Nicole) shared there.

As always, I miss you Dad.
And tonight I start my first bereavment group.
I'm looking forward to being around other people who understand the magnitude of this loss. The loss of a parent.

I have an amazing group of people who I know love me & who would do just about anything for me. Thank God for them, they have been my angels here on earth. I am blessed to have them & beyond grateful for their constant love & support.
But there is something different about being with people who have been through it, who really truly "get it".
And these new people who I haven't met yet are at the same point that I'm at.
We're all about 3 months into this grief process.

Oh how I wish you were coming with us tomorrow. But I know you will be with us in spirit & I know you would be smiling to see the 3 of us spending time together. And I know you would be happy that Robert will be with 2 people who love him so much on his birthday.

As the world reflects back on this day, I will also reflect back on all the amazing memories we shared. And I will always always always remember you with love.