"Preparing"

Nicole & I went to Dad's last night.
On the way over there we having a normal regular conversation & I said to her "life is just one big roller coster ride Nik".
And as much as I was saying it TO her, I think I was also reminding myself.

I believe that we're always "preparing" for something, starting as young children.
We prepare to go to school,to get our drivers licenses, to go to college, get married, have children, get a job...etc

But there are certain things that we just can't prepare for.
Even if we have the knowledge or the "notice".

Right now, Im TRYING to prepare myself for the loss of my Dad.
But I know deep in my heart, that his physical absence from this world will effect me like nothing I've ever experienced before.

It doesn't matter that I know he is dying.
It doesn't matter that the Dr has given him 6 months.
None of those facts matter.

But I guess somehow, some way, we survive.