All 4 of us

Dear Dad,
Im writing this as if you can read it.
In 3 days it will be 3 months since you left this world.
It feels like only yesterday but also feels like a lifetime.
I miss you more with each day that passes & I know for a fact that all of your children, all 4 of us are really feeling your absence. For some reason, this week in particular.

Im going to get a new car today. And that's only possible because of a little help from you !
Why am I not surprised that even now, even today, you're STILL helping me?
Taking any money from what you left me, breaks my heart. I would give anything to have YOU rather then any money or any car.
But I know you would want me to be safe. I know you would want me in something reliable.
And we spoke about the car sitaution before you passed. You're words were "You're gonna need a car, you can "rent" them for cheap" ( what you meant was lease but I understood)

I have been having some crazy dreams lately. And you've been in most of them. Im not sure what they mean other then you are always on my mind.

I went to the cemetery yesterday to talk to you, to thank you for your help. I cannot believe how big your tomatoe plant has gotten and your pepper plant too.
I even took pictures & will upload them onto here later.

I love you Dad. And I miss you. SO So much !

Please continue to watch over us & guide us.

Until we meet again - you will always remain in my heart !
xoxoxoxoxo