The End is Near

The end is near.
On Wednesday the hospice aide was there & I asked her "how long?" - she said "maybe 2 weeks".
At that point Dad hadn't eaten in about 5 days & hasn't urinated.
When the hospice nurse came she said "maybe a week" - I suppose nobody but God knows.
However when she took his blood pressure it was 58 over 30.
She (linda) said she wound't be surpirsed if he became completely unresponsive by tomorrow, which was yesterday.
His vision is off.
Today is Friday - he has now not eaten in about a week & still not going to the bathroom.
He's a little delusional.
He really just sleeps.

I came to work this morning.
I cannot sleep & I just don't know what to do with myself.

I have said everything I could possibly want to say.
Well, everything except "goodbye".
I just can't bring myself to say those words.

I will be forever changed by his loss.
I am terrified, scared, every adjective you could think of.

He was my Rock, ALL OF MY LIFE !
He never turned his back to me.
He loved me always.

I have to write his obituary.
How do you write your father's obituary?
What do you say?


All I can do is pray for the strength to get thru this
I have a feeling I'll be going thru the motions, whatever they may be