9 Months !!!!

9 Long Months !

That's how long it's been since I've seen you, talked to you, held your hand or heard your voice.

People say "time heals all wounds", well, I think that's bullshit.

When you love someone as much as I loved you, 9 months is a long fuckin time & it only makes my heart hurt even more.

I've tried to do my best of "moving on", "moving forward", making you proud.
Maybe I have at times but I know for sure I've had my share of set backs.

A lot has happened in these past 9 months.
Some things I just can't write on here because not everyone knows.

But I know that YOU know !
You guided me, gave me strength & gave me hope.

I have been scared, I have been down right terrified but I had to hold it all in.

I wonder how much longer til I get to see you again.
Im not rushing my life away. Im sure I have some pretty wonderful things in store but God Damn it Dad, I can't take it.

Words cant even begin to express the depth of my pain.